That day. It was a bright sunny day which was a

  welcome change from the rain that you would usually be plagued with at this time of the year. And that placed me in an exceptionally good mood.

  The slightly worn down station located in a rural area just right outside the city that can be access to with a swap in trains. This was the sort of station that would only ever be busy during the evening or in the morning. This was due to the fact that it was mostly

  used by students commuting to and from school.

  The majority of the state schools had been located in this area, largely due to the fact that land was relatively cheap compared to other places.

  Though, luckily for me, the distance to the school that I attended was not so far that I would need to take a bus. I mean, having to do that much exercise in the morning would most definitely kill me.

  [TN: It’s just taking a bus……]

  Come to think of it I won’t even choose that kind of school in the first place. Yep I won’t.

  Ah……But the weather was so good today. I wonder if I should skip? At least summer’s only just around the corner. Walking while lost in these thoughts, someone tap me from behind.

  ” Shou, good morning! ”


  ” Ohh! Morning Terao. ”


  Ehh…… Why is it not a girl from my class…… Wait. It’s not like I always think about that sort of stuff! I am not thinking about it!

  Terao.

  I first met Terao when I entered high school and, due to our similar personalities, we became close quite quickly. I suppose you could now call us best friends.

  ” What’s with that face? You must be thinking about something rude like ah, why is it Terao, right? ”


  ” Ah. I was exposed. ”


  Although I was laughing, I was really wondering how life could be so cruel.

  Terao is popular. He is what they call an ‘Ikemen’. [TN: Handsome]

  What a troublesome guy I am? Can’t be helped, that is the kind of guy I am.

  ” Ah…… I am jealous of your looks. ”


  Compared to the sunny sky, it was getting cloudy in my heart.

  “Seriously? This again? Why do you always say this stuff? I’m so tired of hearing it. ”


  Terao rolled his eyes at me. We have almost the same conversation every morning. I suppose you could even call it our daily greeting.

  Not discriminating to anyone, friendly, yet not frivolous and kind…… That just about sums up Terao.

  And then there’s me.

  I really hate to admit it, but I just don’t seem to be liked by the ladies.

  Whenever I try talking to one of them in class, the strangest thing happens. Either they’ll only talk to me briefly, in what only can be described as a whisper, before turning red and running away. Or, they’ll be dragged away by someone before I can even say anything!

  Honestly, the only logical explanation that I can come up with is that when they run away, I’ve unknowingly angered them in some way and when they are dragged away by one of their friends, it’s obviously so they can tell them ‘Don’t get close to someone like that!’.

  Damn it! Why is that guy so popular!?

  Ohh, the world can really be unfair sometimes……

  While ranting in my heart, I caught the strange look that Terao was giving me.

  ” It……It’s nothing. ”


  Ahh, why did I say it like that? I might as well have told him that there was something! But Terao just accepted it with a ” Okay. ” and a smile. I see. What a gentlemanly response. Let’s learn it.

  As I’m secretly nodding to the fact that I have a good role model by my side……

  A vase fell……

  hm? Eh?

  ◆


  The vase hit my head directly.

  The world started spinning in slow-motion.

  the world begins to spin in slow-motion and, just like that, after a slight feeling of pressure, my skull cracked.

  I died……!

  Having that thought, my eyes opened to a field of flowers all around me. What is happening? …… That’s right. I was hit on the head by a vase. But why am I in a field of flowers?

  Is this real? Was I really killed by something as ridiculous as a vase?

  Wait. What about the wheel of reincarnation or King Enma or the last judgement? [TN: I like the name Enma so I’m not gonna use Hades.]

  Ahh, being dead is surprisingly boring.

  what kind of messed up irony is it to have me wake up in a field of flowers after being killed by a vase? And why is everything flowers? Don’t tell me that this is a hint about my entire life? My head is not full of flowers!

  In the midst of senselessly retorting myself, the field of flowers around me suddenly disappeared, leaving me standing in a seemingly empty white void.

  ” I am really so sorry!! ” [TN: He’s doing old man speak]

  From out of nowhere someone jumped and kneel in front of me…… An old man.

  [TN: He is doing dogesa]

  Erm…… What is with this situation?

  ” Erm, what is happening? Please raise your head. ”


  For now, I supposed I will just accept the situation and even though I had no idea what I should do. But I would really like an explanation first, in order to understand the situation.

  ” You…… forgive me? ”


  After hearing my words, the old man raises his head, eyes sparkling……

  Not amused.

  I am not happy despite I am in heaven. The fields of flowers, this kneeling old man, is this harassment? Are you making fun of me?

  As the subtle unpleasantries continue, I suddenly had this thought making my face pale in an instant. Nothing good is happening, and everything unpleasant kept on happening…… Don’t tell me…… could this really be hell?

  ” This is not heaven. Yet neither is it hell ”


  While having these thoughts, the old man suddenly stops apologizing and stands up. Have you stop apologizing? Although I have no idea why you are apologizing, seeing how desperate you are means something really bad happened. Your attitude sure changes fast.

  I looked at the old man, thinking, while touching my lips. I’m pretty sure that I wasn’t just absent-mindedly speaking my thoughts aloud. Which could only mean…… can this old man read my thoughts!?

  ” I am not a human but a god. ”
……

  Eh. Seriously?

  My jaw dropped. I began to look around this empty void. All I could see was white. White, white. White all around. Much like those countries you see on the

  news from time to time that are attacked by snow storms and render everything white. This space is

  definitely not man-made!

  Ah……This is for real……

  I sighed.

  ” Please don’t tell me……that I died because of……you? ”


  That’s what happened in the web novel that I was hooked up with reading. It cannot be that right, I laugh bitterly.

  ” Yes, it is my fault. ”


  The old man puffed out his chest while saying that. Almost like he was somewhat proud of what he had done.

  This old man…… he’s not really sorry at all is he?

  ” Would you like to hear the reason? ”


  It seemed like he was speaking in a different language or something.

  I sighed.

  ” Eh…… Ah, my beard caught onto the plants without my knowing…… ”
……

  His beard.

  The reason for my death is his beard. That long beard of his.

  Isn’t there supposed to be some kind of special reason when a God kills someone!?

  And it turns out to be his beard! Isn’t this too half-assed? Oi! This is really just a bit too much.

  “.……And? What should I do? ”


  I sit down with my head tucked into my legs, giving up.

  ” ……You accept that pretty fast. ”


  God exclaimed as his eyes peeked out from below

  underneath his long eyebrows.

  “Ah…… it’s pointless. I can’t laugh it off and forgive you for killing me. To be completely honest I’m extremely pissed off. I mean, it’s not like you’re going to send me back if I make a ruckus right?”


  After hearing this, God looked at me, visibly shocked at my response. I mean, a being such as God knelt and apologized to me. If he was able to send me back, he would have done so in the first place.

  ” Even so, most people would probably try to go against this fact. ”


  Ah. Is that right.

  It must be because I am a lonely existence.

  My sigh got seen by God.

  ” And what’s gonna happen to me? ”


  ” Well, even though I killed you, which was my mistake, I cannot resurrect you. You will either have to reincarnate or disappear. What do you know of the wheel of reincarnation? ”


  ” I’ve heard about it…… ”


  The souls of the dead are guided by the wheel of reincarnation and return to the world with a different life. That sort of stuff. In short, they are given a new life.

  God, who was looking at me, nod with satisfaction. I realized that he must still be reading my thoughts and determined that my knowledge was correct. I am surprised that reincarnation really exist but hey, sure, why not?……

  But I am not disappearing! That’s horrible!

  Against reincarnation is disappearance…… You are really…… there was never really a choice to begin with was there?!

  ” …… I’ll reincarnate. ”


  At that answer, God nodded deeply and said ” This time really…… “. I did not pay attention to most of it but it ends with ” To truly apologize, I will grant you any of your wishes. ”


  Isn’t this the legendary [Cheat] around the net? Magic cheat or maybe strength cheat? There are so many different kinds of cheats float around in my head but I just can’t seem to find any that appeal to me. Also, it’s usually the case that the people who receive these cheats will often find themselves getting into many troublesome situations.

  I mean it’s not like I have some mind of god complex and have a desire to become some sort of unparalleled master. If you were to ask me what I really want, I would have to say that I wanted to be liked, to be loved. Is that too much to asked for……? Right……hmm…… at least I don’t want to be hated like I am now……

  There are also some things in life which I would do differently if I had the choice. Should I make use of my previous experiences?

  ” I want to retain all of my memories of from this previous life. ”


  ” Is that all? ”


  ” If I ask too much, it probably won’t end well for me. ”


  As I laugh bitterly, I recalled the largest trauma from my previous life. Tongue-Cut Sparrow.

  [TM: It’s a folktale, search it up.]

  ” I see. ”


  Upon hearing my answer, God smiled gently towards me.

  ” And so. Let’s send you on your way. ”


  With that, my body is wrapped in a warm glow.

  ◆◆◆


  TN : I finished!! Well, it did get easier as it went on but it took me close to 4 hours…… Enjoy!

  D005 – Resemblance (John’s POV)

  Posted on June 15, 2016 by crazypumkin

  TN : John is coming.

  Thanks for all the support!

  And we have a new editor! Welcome Poor_Hero kun!!

  *Whistles and pop crackers*

  ” How’s the taste, John? ”


  [TN: Original text is ” How’s the seasoning? “]

  On the day off which I grudgingly took, I returned to the capital and was eating lunch in a restaurant that I frequented during my school days. A slim guy who entered the restaurant started making his way straight towards me. I saw him out of the corner of my eye but as I was too engrossing in my meal, he came and sat at my table before I finally noticed.

  ” Delicious as always, Zirco. ” [TN : Original is Jiruko]

  I looked at Zirco for a moment as I answered before returning my attention back to my lunch. As I thought, the food here was awesome. My attitude might be considered rude but hey, I knew this guy since the school days. Knowing his temper, he wouldn’t mind.

  It was due to his help that I managed to become the tutor for the Beryl Family. Despite being on friendly terms with a scholar like me, Zirco was actually the leader of the intelligence corps within the Black Knights that answered directly to the King. His job scope was to investigate information or to provide his expertise and I helped sometimes. As a colleague and friend, he was the one closest to me.

  I should express my gratitude towards him but due to being raised in a problematic family, I just could not honestly thank him even at this age. [TN : 2nd tsundere found.]

  Every time I opened my mouth, I just ended up hesitating. I knew this was a bad habit of mine but I just could not break it.

  ” But I think John is too good to be wasted as a tutor…… ”


  Thinking about this as he poked his sweet ‘Jelly’, Zirco crossed his arms.

  It was not in Zirco’s nature to use flattery. Most scholars would be honored by this but…… Involuntarily, laughter slipped out from my mouth. Zirco looked at me, shocked.

  ” This is rare for someone who had a smiling poker face, what’s up? ”


  ” Ah, nothing. It’s just that I found something a lot more interesting than researching. I am very contented right now. ”


  I said, smiling as I always did as Zirco goggled at me. My comment caused me to think back to that day. Yep, that day when I first met Will.

  It was fate that I was able to attend William-Beryl’s Debut/Birthday party. I could never forget that day. This genius, at 3 years old, putting aside how well done his debut speech was, had a well-featured face that was like an angel, making me wanting to teach this gifted child. [TN: John, get!] It was like the happiness of finding a perfect plant, you would want to plant it and refine it further.

  But, that day. I finally understood after meeting Will.

  How blessed I was to meet with this small, yet big-in-sprite person.

  I was to wait in the drawing room when I arrived at the Beryl house. For an interview that was held by Gion-Beryl, Will’s father. [TN: So the = sign between the names it’s not only Will but the entire Beryl family.] Based on how I interacted, it would determine if I could be officially hired as Will’s tutor. Not to brag but I had made breakthroughs in research exceeding even court-appointed scholars and had confidence in the knowledge I possessed. Though the part of me was a little disappointed that I was accepted only after using those points to sell myself.

  And I was allowed into Will’s room.

  I disgraced myself by being a little out of it after using my all in the interview, my face was stiff and moreover, due to nervousness, used a formal tone with Will. However, Will did not seem to mind. Even though I tended to have a rather ill-natured looking face if I did not take care of my expression due to my upturned eyes. [TN: So John have a RBF.]

  Will had the same charisma as was like in the party, no, even more than that. The intelligent eyes stared straight at me, the cute bow he did when he greeted……

  Will was really the best.

  [TN: I repeat, this is not BL. Nor is John a shota-con.]

  ” You’re making a weird face John. ”


  Oops. I might be involuntarily grinning as I was lost in my thoughts and was retorted by Zirco with a sullen face. It proved how happy I felt about that pleasant day. [TN: Once again, not BL.]

  And soon after entering Will’s room, we started introducing ourselves. On top of understanding my intention in my question, he managed to give a perfect answer……choosing to call me John-sensei surprised me.

  [TN: John was trying to test if Will knew about his history about him abandoning his family name.]

  After which began a trial lesson to gauge Will’s level of knowledge…… was what I meant to do but besides knowing how to read and write, Will’s math was perfect.

  He threw my expectations right out of the window. The mathematical questions were actually at level of a court-appointed scholar and yet Will solved it easily.

  What a great talent. So great that a chill was creeping up my back. I meant, a 3 years old could effortlessly solve mathematical questions that a court-appointed scholar on the road to doing research was still studying.

  And due to that, we had ample of time left.

  I smiled a little bitterly, telling Will that there was nothing else to do. Will then, brimming with curiosity just like how children are, wanted to ask me some questions.

  Right now, I might be looking back fondly to that day but at that time, I was disappointed at Will. In the end, like everyone else, he was looking at me through my ‘family’ and not at me directly. I knew that I was the one who pushed my expectations onto him and he was not to be blamed……

  ” Well then, I wanna know more about John-sensei! ”


  I was sure that Will had heard about my situation from Gion-sama and was going to ask questions about that. However, all the questions that he asked were really all about ‘me’.

  [TN: In the manga, Will as asking if John had a girlfriend and such.]

  I couldn’t help but laughed. I saw, this person understood. This came as a shock to the me who had hung out with Nobles for a long time. Ah, what I was thinking about. Why I would think that a 3 years old understood me just like that. But I did think that. And then, without thinking, I asked.

  ” Are you not going to ask? ”


  A horrible sentence without any subject. Without mind-reading abilities, just by that alone no one would understand what I was asking. However, Will replied.

  ” There is no need to ask, isn’t it? John-sensei is John-sensei. ”


  That answer saw through my feelings of hatred about my family splendidly. Ah, but what if it was not Will who said that? I would think they were simply saying that, just to pretend that they understood me.

  But Will’s eyes were transparent. With a tint of darkness. Like how he knew exactly how I felt. It was like looking into a mirror.

  I thanked god for the luck to be able to meet with this person.

  Even though it couldn’t be. Reason was telling me it couldn’t be that Will understood my feelings at his age but my heart and instinct were telling me the opposite.

  And thus, I felt like I had found a close friend.

  Thinking back on this encounter with my student a few months ago, I found myself biting on my lips unconsciously. I relaxed.

  ” Zirco, thank you. Really. ”


  And the words that I definitely wouldn’t say came out of my mouth. I laughed.

  ” Jo……John is honestly saying his thanks……!! The world much be ending soon…… ”


  [TN: Original is that Lance / Spear is falling.]

  I would pretend that I did not heard what Zirco muttered under his breath as I enjoy my sweet ‘Jelly’.

  D004 – The Thoughts of The Boy

  Posted on June 14, 2016 by crazypumkin

  [TN: Looks like an interlude.]

  Editor: Poor_Hero

  The boy was in a single-parent family.

  His mother worked overtime everyday. In addition to the difficulties of raising a child single-handedly and doing her job were proving to be more difficult than she thought caused her spirit to wear away everyday.

  The boy’s mother was beautiful.

  But ……

  ◆


  That day, the boy’s mother returned home late after her overtime.

  ” Welcome home. ”


  The boy who turned 8 honestly waited for his mother to come home every night.

  Just so to give his mother warm food after working hard everyday for his sake.

  ” …… I’m home. ”


  The dinner prepared by the boy was splendid. So good that he could open a restaurant. The boy, since young, has been trying his best with the housework.

  In order to lessen his mother’s burden. In order to get a smile from her. In order to get praised by her. In order to get approval from her.

  But no matter how he tried his best, his mother never smiled at him. Never ever praised him. She even treated like he was not even there.

  Today was the same. His mother did not smile, did not say that the food was delicious and simply went to bed with a darkened face.

  Even so, the boy never did once blame his mother.

  Because the boy knew how many difficulties his mother had faced.

  The boy had a thought.

  Anyone can do housework. It was the boy himself who hadn’t tried his best.

  And so the boy tried harder.

  His studies. Sports.

  He tried hard as like in the past. He got full marks every time. Before he realized, he had already studied all the way till university level.

  Without slacking at housework.

  He would fold the clothes neatly, clean every nook and corner, cook delicious dinner every night, get full marks in every test.

  And all he got was a ” Right. “.

  It was a wearisome, short reply.

  A reply that did not recognize the effort the boy put in.

  And even so, the boy did never once blame his mother.

  It happened on a certain day.

  The boy’s mother fainted.

  She was admitted into the hospital but no cause could be found.

  She was already skinny and yet she got skinnier day by day.

  The boy devoted his time in taking care of her.

  And even so never had once his mother looked at him.

  The final day came.

  It was a rare day where his mother was smiling self-deprecatingly which caused the boy to involuntarily ask.

  ” Mum, why do you hate me? ”


  The boy knew it in his heart.

  Why his mother never once looked at him no matter how hard he tried.

  The boy’s mother smiled a gentle self-deprecating smile.

  ” I hate that face of yours. ”


  The boy’s mother knew in her heart that the boy was not in the wrong.

  In fact she was even thankful towards him. If she ever managed to be frank to him.

  In the end, anger took over her.

  Every time she looked at his face she would remember her divorced husband.

  And now she was looking at that person’s eyes.

  ” I’m sorry. ”


  The hoarse mumble of the boy’s mother did not reach him. For he had left the hospital room.

  The next day, it was the first time the boy was not in the hospital room.

  Then, as if it was at her own choosing, the boy’s mother breathed her last.

  With a graceful smile that not even the boy had even seen on her face.

  ” So it was because of this face. ”


  The boy clenched his fist.

  ” This face…… ”


  And he decided.

  To live strongly.

  That even with his face there wouldn’t be a problem.

  ◆


  ” ……It’s a dream.”


  He woke up as it was hard to breathe.

  Looking outside the window, the sky was still somewhat dark, looking like it’s a little before dawn.

  But it had been some time since he last had that dream……

  He thought he managed to forget about it.

  He laughed self-mockingly as he got up.

  Careful not to wake his parents who were sleeping on either side of him, he got out of the bed and walked down the corridor.

  ” Fuwaaaa ”


  He let out a huge yawn as he headed towards his own room.

  It must be because of the conversation yesterday that he had that dream.

  The meaning behind what John-sensei said could be guessed easily as he had been through it before. He thought they were quite alike.

  Which was why he thought that they can get along well.

  Even though there was a huge age gap, he still thought that they can become close friends.

  Even though he was a little worried when he heard about John-sensei’s problematic family, unexpectedly it just might turn out well.

  ◆◆◆


  TN: Since I had some time after finishing chapter 3 so I thought I can get started on chapter 4……turns out I managed to finish this within 1 hour.

  DOUBLE RELEASE for you guys!

  PS: Please don’t get used to this.