Chapter 84 - No One Ever Loved Me
Ying Lili was glaring at Sheng Li who was still suppressing his laughs. She put the mirror on the bed and got down from it. Sheng Li got confused seeing this. He stopped Ying Lili by grabbing her arm. "Where are you going?" Sheng Li questioned.
Ying Lili jerked off Sheng Li's hand from under her arm. "Stop pulling pranks like a kid," Ying Lili said with exasperation.
"Why are you angry? My mood is fine, now so, better not to start a fight again with me. Let me clean your face first or have you planned to roam with this pretty face of yours throughout the Palace?" Sheng Li queried Ying Lili and again grabbed her arm.
"But my mood is ruined. You are the one who started a fight with me and then you said bluntly that I saved you because of my selfish reasons. How could you say that? Do you really think I would have wanted you to die?" Ying Lili questioned Sheng Li.
Sheng Li turned Ying Lili towards him and lifted her chin with his index finger. "I said it because you said those words to me when I saw you for the first time and asked you if you want to marry me. Why would you not want me to die? I am the man opposite that you always wished for," Sheng Li reasoned as he peered into the eyes of Ying Lili.
"But it does not mean that I want my husband to die. Indeed, you are not the man which I wished for, but it does not mean that you cannot become that man of my wishes," Ying Lili answered.
Sheng Li never expected this kind of answer from Ying Lili. A husband like him, no woman desired for! He was the definition of danger from whom women tried running away- not only women but men too. Only a few could understand him. Ying Lili was the same at first, but why all out of a sudden she was behaving like that, Sheng Li wanted to know.
"You think I can become the man of your wishes?!" Sheng Li was astonished and amused upon hearing Ying Lili's last statement.
"Can't you? If I can become the woman you want to have, then why can't you become the man I always wanted?" Ying Lili questioned him.
Sheng Li snickered in amusement. "Women never wished for a husband like me. Do you know why?" Sheng Li asked. Ying Lili refused plainly.
"Because I never show mercy. I am emotionless and heartless. I want to survive and rule this world and for that, if I have to kill anyone close to me, I will. I will not even hesitate to kill any of my brothers to rule this world. It does not matter to me if I will end up alone," Sheng Li pronounced. His gaze did not leave Ying Lili's even for a second.
"You are wrong. You are not heartless, nor are you emotionless. Yesterday I saw myself. Everyone wants to survive in this world and there is nothing wrong with that. You also hesitate to kill… it is just you want to portray yourself as supreme," Ying Lili counter replied Sheng Li.
Sheng Li curled up his lips, and a sly smile formed over them. "No one ever loved me because I do not love," Sheng Li asserted.
"You are wrong again. Your two brothers love you and your father- he also loves you. What about General Wang and General Xiao? They also love you. You also get worried about them and care for them," Ying Lili opined.
Sheng Li knitted his brows. How should he make Ying Lili understand that he was way more selfish than she thought? But then why should he even tell her those things. "You talked too much. If this ink will not be removed soon, then you have to stay with this face throughout your life. I have no issue with this face but I think you and others might have." Sheng Li changed the topic quickly.
Ying Lili touched her cheeks when Sheng Li told her to stay there. He walked out of his chamber and after five minutes he came back. He had a white cotton cloth in his hand and a phial too. Sheng Li opened the phial and tilted it on the cotton cloth. He closed the phial quickly and placed it near his waistband pocket.
Sheng Li gripped the cotton cloth between his fingers and placed his other hand behind Ying Lili's back head as he brought her closer to him. He started cleaning the ink from Ying Lili's cheeks. "Ahh," Ying Lili screamed as Sheng Li wiped her cheek with a substantial force.
Sheng Li pulled his hand back and looked at Ying Lili with inquisitiveness. "Can't you be gentle?" Ying Lili complained as she placed her hand on her left cheek. "Don't act like a crybaby. I was gentle," Sheng Li stated and removed Ying Lili's hand from the left cheek.
This time, he was gentle. Soon he cleaned both cheeks and pinched Ying Lili's nose tip. "It suits you," Sheng Li mumbled as a smile formed on his lips. Ying Lili hit Sheng Li hard on his arm and the two glared at each other. "You are getting violent day by day. I have to find a way to control your violence, wild cat," Ying Lili heard Sheng Li who was carefully wiping her nose tip.
Ying Lili stared at Sheng Li until he was done cleaning Ying Lili's face. "It's done. You can look at the mirror," Sheng Li told Ying Lili and met her eyes. He snapped his fingers in front of Ying Lili's eyes who blinked and stepped back. She picked the mirror and checked her face. "It is clean. I shall wash my face. Never do this again," Ying Lili stated, and turned back to him.
"Do you want to shoot arrows with me after having lunch?" Sheng Li asked Ying Lili who was delighted to hear that.
"Of course! If I will win, then you will fulfill my wish," Ying Lili quickly bet on that.
"You can ask anything but you cannot ask anything for your uncle's family else I will turn your mother also into a slave," Sheng Li put forward his condition.
Ying Lili was out of words after hearing Sheng Li's condition. "Okay, I understood," Ying Lili replied.